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Sharing more from “洗脳” (Brainwash) authored by ToshI-kun (*_*)
When ToshI-kun performed “The Last Live,” he was not being able at all to be “there” in the beginning.. Before he got to the Tokyo Dome, he was receiving a torture. For all those years (12 years) he was brainwashed (to believe that doing rock is a sin, to say the very least). He was constantly and intensively abused.. mentally, verbally and physically. (It’s too heavy and intense for me to go into it..it’s to an extent that I am so happy that he came back alive..) (; _ ; )
While standing on stage at the Tokyo Dome, his mind was still completely chained down by those who were torturing him. He was not able to do it.. until.. he heard Hide-chan’s voice.
Hide-chan told him (on stage), “ToshI-kun, go at it! Let’s go all out!” That did it for ToshI-kun! Hide-chan was the reason why he was able to snap out of it.. and able to do “The Last Live.” (*_*)
(Hide-chan was probably able to hear ToshI-kun’s voiceless screaming.. •̩̩̩͙े༊ )
 Several months later, ToshI-kun did receive a phone call from Hide-chan. They talked about 20 minutes over the phone. In the conversation, ToshI-kun told him a little bit about the new adventure he was having. Hide-chan listened to what ToshI-kun was saying, trying to understand it. At the end, Hide-chan invited him to have a drink with him soon to talk about this more.
This turned out to be the last conversation ToshI-kun had with Hide-chan (/ _ ; )
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By Mika @mikaxxxxxxxxx

mikaxxxxxxxxx:

Sharing more from “洗脳” (Brainwash) authored by ToshI-kun (*_*)

When ToshI-kun performed “The Last Live,” he was not being able at all to be “there” in the beginning.. Before he got to the Tokyo Dome, he was receiving a torture. For all those years (12 years) he was brainwashed (to believe that doing rock is a sin, to say the very least). He was constantly and intensively abused.. mentally, verbally and physically. (It’s too heavy and intense for me to go into it..it’s to an extent that I am so happy that he came back alive..) (; _ ; )

While standing on stage at the Tokyo Dome, his mind was still completely chained down by those who were torturing him. He was not able to do it.. until.. he heard Hide-chan’s voice.

Hide-chan told him (on stage), “ToshI-kun, go at it! Let’s go all out!” That did it for ToshI-kun! Hide-chan was the reason why he was able to snap out of it.. and able to do “The Last Live.” (*_*)

(Hide-chan was probably able to hear ToshI-kun’s voiceless screaming.. •̩̩̩͙े༊ )


Several months later, ToshI-kun did receive a phone call from Hide-chan. They talked about 20 minutes over the phone. In the conversation, ToshI-kun told him a little bit about the new adventure he was having. Hide-chan listened to what ToshI-kun was saying, trying to understand it. At the end, Hide-chan invited him to have a drink with him soon to talk about this more.

This turned out to be the last conversation ToshI-kun had with Hide-chan (/ _ ; )

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By Mika @mikaxxxxxxxxx

(via scarlet-love-song)

I was tagged by makowashimai, she’s a butt~~

Rule 1: post the rules

Rule 2: answer the questions the tagger asked you and make 11 new ones

Rule 3: tag 11 people and link them to your post

Rule 4: let them know you have tagged them

  1.  Who is your favorite singer/band? There’s a few… ToshI/X Japan; hide/hide with Spread Beaver; Billie Joe/Green Day; P!nk;…that’s all i can think of right now.
  2.  Who do you look up to? my godmother, my dad, my mentors from college, all of X Japan
  3.  What is your dream job? I’m gonna be 27 in about a month, and I don’t know anymore. Teaching? Pay me to go to conventions? 
  4.  What are some things you do to calm yourself down? Depends on what I’m trying to calm down from. Sometimes rubbing the backs of my hands together, angry music (if I’m angry), classical music, breathing exercises, meditation
  5.  Do you have any siblings? in spirit, none by blood
  6.  What kind of movie do you like? Disney’s almost a sure win. Comedies, action, sometimes romance
  7.  Have you/would you ever cosplay? naturally.
  8.  Do you have a favorite anime? I do.
  9.  What type of food comforts you? mashed potatoes and chocolate milk. Also good bread
  10.  What anime would you like to be a part of? ehhhh…I’ll go with Samurai Deeper Kyo…Manga-verse.
  11.  What was your favorite toy as a child? a teddy bear I named “Soft Bear.” or Polly Pockets. Or Legos. Or Barbies.

My turn for questions? 

  1. What’s your sign? (Either zodiac’s fine)
  2. Would you rather go to the mountains or the beach?
  3. What’s the last movie you watched?
  4. Is there a book you recommend above any other?
  5. What sort of games do you like to play?
  6. Would you rather go to a movie theater or a live theatre?
  7. What’s your favorite song right now?
  8. What is your favorite creature?
  9. Do you collect anything? What?
  10. Is there a blog you recommend following immediately?
  11. What is your favorite outfit (or cosplay if you prefer)?

Who shall I tag…? Well, if you guys feel like it: wondy, safirev, pulchritudinous-gal, lastminutelycan, bluskadoe, intrajanelle, stellarhime, dr34m-34t3r, indieexhale, apollophoenix, xylune